August 25, 2015
For the first time since I moved back to East Vancouver in May, I feel like I belong here. I’ve felt the greatest sense of belonging at Discovery, and while that is a wonderful and powerful thing, it’s not necessarily healthy to feel more at home at your job than at your….home. I had a month and a half of living on my Auntie’s couch while combing this city for an affordable place to live (depressing), moved into one that needed a LOT of Tender Loving Care (and elbow grease, and pure vision, and pure faith, and a wee bit of stupidity), and immediately sustained a terrible injury to my right hand (also depressing). There have been moments of fear and trepidation in my part, and the transition has been hard.
I say all of this at all because I want to share with you my most comforting thought in times of duress. When I am afraid of what’s to come, of not being in control, of surrender, I look around at all the people I don’t know doing their thing and carrying on, I say to myself,
“Ush, if all these other idiots can do it, so can you.” This attitude has resulted in my being able to learn to swim as an adult, to learn to drive a car as an adult, and being able to fall in love, for short periods of time. I don’t know what your most encouraging phrase is, but if you don’t have one, try mine out. It might seems bleak, but it’s not. It’s kinda funny. And it will fill you with courage.
If courage had a colour it would be the colour of these, yellow grape tomatoes from Secrest. I don’t know if you know this but all tomato plants have little hairs all over them, but yellow tomato plants have little golden hairs all over them, that twinkle in the sunlight. The whole PLANT is more magical than other tomato plants.